i sat in the dead ‘auto safety house’ parking lot
across from the chinese buffet with the tall sign that the wind carried off long ago

first i ate my adobada tacos
two for nine dollars
which seemed like way too much
and a bargain at the same time

under
the circumstances
and i wrote rewrote
not a list but a meditation

about all the different sub-categories
that fall under sooth
and try to become something like
the Mission

i’m happy with it
but not satisfied either

While i was there, doing that
a gallon of gas shot up another 25 cents
well on the way to beyond four dollars
when last week and the months before it had lingered around three.

which reminded me
to write down the thesis about civilization leading to the Madness of us all
that whole thing being
another important sub-category of the whole which i am trying to encompass, embrace