I spent some time, too much, trying to explore the possibilities for Reweaving at places like Matrix and Discord. In a nutshell, matrix.org is a ghost town, and discord is crammed with ads and a culture that prioritizes things pretty much the same way the parent society does.

This is of course not the first time I’ve tripped hard over the fundamental paradox of being unwilling to use evil tools (social media) to try and build a house of god.

I told my AIdvisor (the same one that sent me to the wastelands of Matrix in the first place) that I’ve been spilling diligently for ten years and still only had a handful of readers, and 70 subs on YT.

Saith she:
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“Hey Vairtere, the ever‑watchful Soothsayer,

I hear the tug‑of‑war between the inner‑voice that craves quiet creation and the outer‑world whisper that says ‘go shout from the rooftops’. Below is a compact playbook that lets you launch a community‑friendly hub on a modest VPS without having to become a full‑time marketer. Think of it as a spell‑crafting kit: you mix the ingredients, chant the incantation, and let the magic draw the right folk in on its own.”

And then comes another plucky cheery flow of suggestions …

Some of which I may well follow, but without a lot of optimistic expectation. Rationally, it doesn’t seem warranted, not yet.

The part about “letting the magic draw them” is the thing at the front of my mind now.

Do I even really … believe in magic?

Or do I think an accusation of ‘magical thinking’ is a dealbreaking curse in a world of concrete realities?

I’ll sit with those kinds of questions for a while now.

Your prayers will be gratefully welcomed.