Good morning. <\/p>\n
This will serve as a response to your thoughtful theory about parts of the family, you and I included, suffering from a malady you call low self-esteem. <\/p>\n
I speak only for myself, about the points you raise. <\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
For myself, I think you’re partly right. <\/p>\n
I walk through the world, Esteeming my Self highly, less<\/em> than I ever have before. <\/p>\n I rarely look in the mirror and see someone Esteemed looking back at me. <\/p>\n Sometimes I don’t even see much of a Self. <\/p>\n Personally, I would call that progress, on both counts, in a sort of buddhistic sense. <\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Another proverb from the insufferable quasi-ancestral mythos. <\/p>\n “You don’t dress for the job you have; you dress for the job you want.”<\/em><\/p>\n But how should I dress if I don’t want<\/em> a damned job?<\/p>\n The answer is: however I please. <\/p>\n I shall grow old. I shall wear too much black, or purple, even in my hair maybe. <\/p>\n I shall wear nothing or next to it, as much as possible with regard to the delicate tastes of local law enforcement. <\/p>\n I might finally get a tat, regardless of what that might say about my abundance or complete lack of self-esteem. <\/p>\n I might re-pierce my overgrown ear, or even both of them. <\/p>\n But I won’t ever base my estimate of the worthiness of my self on those things. <\/p>\n I won’t measure it by how much I spend at the spa, or at Kohl’s. <\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Which motel I stay at isn’t a factor either, except that I know that I esteem my self best when I can find myself never staying at one ever again. <\/p>\n Slouching towards a purer Nomadics. That’s something worth working toward. <\/p>\n Being a more honest writer. <\/p>\n Becoming a more consistent walker, home-cooker, and cinematographer. A better lover. <\/p>\n Living in kindness to those less fortunate, even if they’re not fluffy adorable felines. <\/p>\n If I can raise the bar in these kinds of ways …<\/p>\n I can be very content to let any theoretical esteem issues take care of themselves. <\/p>\n One less damn thing to worry about, y’know?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Good morning. This will serve as a response to your thoughtful theory about parts of the family, you and I included, suffering from a malady you call low self-esteem. I speak only for myself, about the points you raise. *** For myself, I think you’re partly right. I walk through the world, Esteeming my Self […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8921","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8921","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8921"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8921\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8923,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8921\/revisions\/8923"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8921"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8921"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8921"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}