{"id":8810,"date":"2025-08-25T00:05:23","date_gmt":"2025-08-25T07:05:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/?p=8810"},"modified":"2025-08-25T05:14:33","modified_gmt":"2025-08-25T12:14:33","slug":"love-me-as-a-loser","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/2025\/08\/25\/love-me-as-a-loser\/","title":{"rendered":"Love Me (As A Loser)"},"content":{"rendered":"

(I’d really like to live inside you, baby)<\/em><\/p>\n

A single image, giving me hope.<\/p>\n

I’ll write it. Maybe I’ll tell it here too; let us blow the cruft out first.<\/p>\n

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The weather fever tried really hard to break of a holy Sunday night. Right up to the edge of it, things were dependably five degrees hotter than they had predicted and then it felt ten degrees worse than that.<\/p>\n

The brink of disaster murmuring.<\/p>\n

But it did rain finally and for real.<\/p>\n

I drove out in it, supposedly to get another bag of obscene berries, but really just to get the rust and dust off the windshield.<\/p>\n

Inside, it stays 60 threatening to be lower all winter and 80 threatening to be higher all summer, and so I consider how to bridge the ten degrees in either direction. Cheaply. In some more or less ancestrally appropriate way.<\/p>\n

Moving to Argenta. The techs to heat and cool just the sleepy space.<\/p>\n

All of that. Yap yap.<\/p>\n

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Driving around with the radio on, I heard a very well-informed source say that at a certain point a few years ago, in urban Minnesota, 37 percent of the homeless were veterans.<\/p>\n

I die a little inside whenever one of us pays lip service to their service, and of course when one of us goes off on how lazy and mentally ill ‘they’ all are.<\/p>\n

I don’t like your fashion business mister
\nAnd I don’t like these drugs that keep you thin
\nI don’t like what happened to my sister
\nFirst we take Manhattan<\/a> …<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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You knew the Mickey Dolenz, drummer, from the fake music group on the TV.<\/p>\n

Here he is as a liony tyke<\/a>, long before you knew.<\/p>\n

And here, as an old old man<\/a>, last surviving Monkee, long after you stopped caring.<\/p>\n

I get what you’re trying to do with it, Billy, and it’s not a bad thing, but I do doubt that it is a truly useful thing, even so.<\/p>\n

So no, I won’t watch the Tom Morello one. Instead i’ll rage against the creeping meatball my own way.<\/p>\n

And watch Trinki purposefully, alternatively.<\/p>\n

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Coming to the end I see now why peddling the image at you would be counterProdoos.<\/p>\n

You’ll have to trust me<\/p>\n

or you won’t<\/p>\n

In the end it’s not going to matter either way, which isn’t the same Necessarily as preaching that Nothing Ever will.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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