Yesterday was Friday. Before it happened, I finally got the perfect night’s sleep again. That’s roughly eight hours between roughly nine at night and five in the morning. <\/p>\n
Then I worked steady and hard all day, and went to bed again at 9 PM again, tossing down a little magnesium to make sure I stayed on track. Couldn’a been better or more virtuous or more promoting of all that is healthful and right. <\/p>\n
But after three hours I woke up anyway. It’s a little after 1 AM on Saturday. I’m at the keyboard when I’m Supposed To Be Sleeping. <\/p>\n
The temptation is to feel frustrated, and honestly I am, but honestly just a little. <\/p>\n
I might blame getting old some. <\/p>\n
I might blame myself, for not perfectly observing the ‘no eating in a three hour window before bedtime’ rule. <\/p>\n
But … <\/p>\n
I also realize that the main reason to blame at all, or to feel frustrated, is Habit. <\/p>\n
“I’m going to be a mess at work tomorrow”. The chant of the wage slave. <\/p>\n
But I’m not a wage slave anymore. so it’s not really and truly that big of a deal, unless I let it be–Habitually. <\/p>\n
Instead I get up, with a minimum of fluster.<\/p>\n
I turn to tell you this story, and brew a pot of perfect peruvian decaf, and remain alert to signs that my body and brain will be willing to take a nap, say between four and seven in the near future. <\/p>\n
Keeping on schedule more or less. <\/p>\n
Or … not. <\/p>\n
Maybe I’ll stay up again until 20 hours from now, groggy toward the end of it, and nail the ideal bedtime yet again for another try.<\/p>\n
Maybe the theoretical nap will be later, and shorter. <\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
At some point in the three hours, I dreamed of fighting my father again, only this time I did not beat him to literal death as I did in the last such dream. <\/p>\n
I just parried him to a draw. <\/p>\n
Awake now, I am considering that maybe he, and other dead people like him, are my only real and true audience after ten years of this practice. <\/p>\n
Or, in parallel, that I myself am a gaistijan\u0105<\/strong>. <\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Then when I was waking I was thinking about major appliances. <\/p>\n Throughout most of civilized history, Owning A Dishwasher meant owning a person (or at the very least paying them wages to dishwash, which is pretty close to the same thing in terms of economic theory). <\/p>\n Nowadays a ‘dishwasher’ is an expensive appliance, though that doesn’t stop the most morally lost of us from hiring people to load, run, and unload our dishwashing machines. <\/p>\n I don’t own either kind and I don’t want to; I wouldn’t even if I too was loaded. <\/p>\n In some weird anarch-ronistic way, I want and need to wash my own dishes, regardless of how much money I have or will ever have. <\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Sinks, therefore, are the most important and essential of the modern appliances. <\/p>\n Alongside a water heater. Hardly any practical way of getting around it. <\/p>\n Followed closely by the other big food ones, the fridge and the stove. (In some idealized world, a garden and a pasture and [let’s face it] an abattoir. <\/p>\n Then out past doing your own food, there’s the furnace, a convenient way to avoid freezing to death. (AC, on top of the HV, if you live somewhere you shouldn’t.) <\/p>\n And a tub, and\/or shower, kind of an almost-essential. <\/p>\n Way down the list there are optional conveniences: washer, dryer, toilet, and so on to the minor appliances: “coffee maker” (please don’t fucking keurig ever), grinder, roaster … uh, “Ninja Foodie”. <\/p>\n However long or short your own list of Necessaries is here, there’s a tremendous amount of work involved in maintaining them and using them, every day of allegedly civilized life, yours and mine both, in varying degrees.<\/p>\n There’s a lot more to say about it all. <\/p>\n But I’m not saying it right now; in part because Who Do You Thinks Gonna Care? <\/p>\n and I have other fish to fry<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Yesterday was Friday. Before it happened, I finally got the perfect night’s sleep again. That’s roughly eight hours between roughly nine at night and five in the morning. Then I worked steady and hard all day, and went to bed again at 9 PM again, tossing down a little magnesium to make sure I stayed […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_hide_featured_image":false,"_jetpack_featured_image_duplicate_dismissed":0,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7575","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7575","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7575"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7575\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7576,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7575\/revisions\/7576"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7575"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7575"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7575"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}