{"id":7558,"date":"2024-12-26T00:01:19","date_gmt":"2024-12-26T07:01:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/?p=7558"},"modified":"2024-12-25T15:51:44","modified_gmt":"2024-12-25T22:51:44","slug":"pairapoems","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/2024\/12\/26\/pairapoems\/","title":{"rendered":"Pairapoems"},"content":{"rendered":"

i am an autristic <\/em><\/p>\n

and
\nfor the most part \/ on most days that is all i ever am<\/p>\n

episodically : as ‘necessary’ : i morphwalk toward
\nhusband son brother catdaddy for visits holidays<\/p>\n

but not friend nor colleague
\nneither innamorato nor citizen<\/p>\n

titular neologism meaning both
\nartist, if you’re on team, and spergy, if-u-ain’t<\/p>\n

leaving it up to your opinion
\nto define me for yourself either way<\/p>\n

and still be
\naccurate enough<\/p>\n

to satisfy
\nthe opinion of the i that am<\/p>\n

***
\n***<\/p>\n

The Ever-Popular Tormented Shaman Effect
\nvariations on a theme by Rundgren <\/em>
\n******<\/p>\n

You’ve got something that’s a secret to the average eye
\nbeen saving what nobody’s seen in your Hideaway<\/p>\n

I can’t stand another second in this tinker-toy empire
\nbless me with your direction<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

In the back of my head there is doubt, suspicion
\nwith my latest fascination
\nI should trust myself, should beware of this, but
\nit’s like the Stranger’s kiss no man can resist<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

It seems like trouble so you hide,
\nkeep it bottled up inside
\ntil its too late and
\nyou track down the tears that don’t rhyme<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

I stand behind every word I said
\nIt takes a special thing to make her stay
\nI was convinced I’d found the Way
\nNow I can’t believe it’s happened to me cuz <\/p>\n

there goes my bay … bay<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

All I need is your whispered Hello (it’s me)
\nyour gin-soaked smile melting the snow queen
\nMemphis hazel eyes that are deeper than time
\nGive me your love before mine fades to dust i guess<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

I am the Emperor of the Universalizing High Way
\n(Where’d you ever find that ancient gas sucking pig of a truck?)
\nChino Valley. This time my friend, you are outclassed
\n(Any real man would drive a stick and shift)<\/p>\n

That stings but my uncle is the Duke of Highway Patrols
\n(Cut me off again and I will punch your headlights out)
\nAnd he will place his Royal Boot upon your aaasss
\n(This is my exit but on a live wire <\/p>\n

right up off the street
\nyou and I should meet
\n[another
\nday])<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

*I* DON”T WANT TO WORK EITHER
\nno sane human doz,en moralizing is shitty fooldump
\nAh jus wanna bang on the belle all day, don’t
\nwant no candy I don’need no toy, jes grab my sticks<\/p>\n

and go out to the shed
\nand i pound on that drum
\nlike it was some boss’s head
\nBecause IIII<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

IIPIty the man scanning the pitiless sky
\nhunting for a sign from above to gather
\nnever catching a glimpse of what he’s worthy of–
\nDon’t sit and wait for the hate world to plate you<\/p>\n

just get a clean, white line on that motherfucker, motherfucker <\/p>\n

and drive<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

we don’t hold the power reins own even
\na horse, Somebody else greed up the control.
\nMustn’t waste another hour
\nto get directly to the soul<\/p>\n

the words don’t matter just feeler
\ndeep, in the thump and spatter and
\nzipper blues. As you see thers
\nno. 1 a round <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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