I always did refuse to deal in slaves, saying no to the Chair position and so on, so nothing essential inside of me died. <\/p>\n
Even though I did grudgingly sell everything I materially had, which is to say my labor, I was acutely aware of the sketchy and dubious bargain I was cutting and (maybe because of that) never did quite freeze up inside. Maybe that’s ‘integrity’. <\/p>\n
At length, just when it looked like I may have danced with the Devil and come out clean and not-poor … <\/p>\n
The bottom fell out, once, twice, and that life-altering third time.<\/p>\n
What I withdrew from was the System. Partway at first, and then all the way, when I withdrew the pension plum. <\/p>\n
I stepped nimbly past the soul death of vassalage. My insides though chilled stayed liquid instead of icing. I withdrew.<\/p>\n
What good did that do me, tangled up in blue?<\/p>\n
That is the question I’ve been wrestling with, with such sober seriousness, these last days and weeks. <\/p>\n
That one and the sperg one–what is this V-syndrome that has shaped me thus?<\/p>\n
The only thing I knew how to do I always did refuse to deal in slaves, saying no to the Chair position and so on, so nothing essential inside of me died. Even though I did grudgingly sell everything I materially had, which is to say my labor, I was acutely aware of the sketchy and dubious bargain I was cutting and (maybe […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3440","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3440","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3440"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3440\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3441,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3440\/revisions\/3441"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3440"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3440"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3440"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nWas to keep on keepin\u2019 on
\nlike a bird that flew<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"