“Yesterday” I was at Zion in Utah for the very first time, and ‘today’ marked a deeper return visit to the North Rim that wasn’t as deep as it might have been. <\/p>\n
It should be red-letter, there should be an epic poem in honor, et cetera. <\/p>\n
There’s not. There never was. The way I am, the way I was raised, all holidays are arbitrary. Celebrating them is collaboration with the cultural system, and I style myself the ultimate rogue. Look how pretty I am. <\/p>\n
Instead, two weeks to the day later, I’m still retconning, still making up ground. <\/p>\n
I owe at least two major calls to beloved, in addition to the as yet still missing fourteen posts. I have three or four envelopes sitting here still unopened, and I have the tedious guilt that goes with all of that, a guilt that proves I’m not as cool as I’d like to be. <\/p>\n
By the time my major mass present arrives finally–“tomorrow?”–I’ll have made serious progress on the digging out, like some emotionally snowbound moral yeti. <\/p>\n
Maybe even a little toward living the life I dream of, where I always know the right thing to say in the moment as things are happening, and can factually prove that all bosses are lepers in the eyes of god. <\/p>\n
Nobody can legally press charges on me for lack of ambition, ennit?<\/p>\n
Si.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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