Now is the hot winter of our discontent. <\/p>\n
I was generally unwell, mucus pouring from the usual places, but it wasn’t really onerous except for the persistent headache. I slept mostly, or tried to in shifts. A few hours and the hurt would wake me again. Mid-afternoon, I took a big dose for it, and another bath. I began to turn the corner. <\/p>\n
Appetite was returning and the pantry was nearly bare. So I had reason to go into town, and I thought getting up and getting out would help anyway. I made it down before the setting of the sun. A fast burrito to stave off hunger. A trip to the grocery, to keep it away for longer. <\/p>\n
The checkout clerk was depressed about her life and in particular the fact that she would be at work until after midnight. <\/p>\n
I said something like this to her: “It’s a shame, that we get to be this age, having worked all our lives, and still have to put up with this shit.”<\/p>\n
She started to tell me eagerly about her plan to escape these sorry facts. But other people came up behind in her line, so she demurred. I said, “We decided just this week that my wife and I are going back to driving team.”<\/p>\n
She probably didn’t even know what the hell I was talking about, or how that could possibly help. <\/p>\n
I’m not sure it will. <\/p>\n
I think the ‘decision’ will stick anyway in some form. I’ve already given up in my heart on the certification, though not the learning. <\/p>\n
Heading back I thought about how going sedentary was the wrong turn humanity made, and maybe the wrong turn I made too, or so it’s begun to seem. <\/p>\n
Getting back behind the wheel of a big truck is not a palliative return to hunting and gathering by a long shot. <\/p>\n
Maybe a return to ceaseless movement for a time is the best course regardless. It doesn’t line up in the logical sense at all. But at the level of myth, it works without flaw. <\/p>\n
I am sick, of the village, the city-state. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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