{"id":2416,"date":"2021-05-18T23:23:33","date_gmt":"2021-05-19T06:23:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/?p=2416"},"modified":"2021-05-21T01:39:55","modified_gmt":"2021-05-21T08:39:55","slug":"a-loss-of-tuesdays","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/2021\/05\/18\/a-loss-of-tuesdays\/","title":{"rendered":"A Loss of Tuesdays"},"content":{"rendered":"

Three of them in a row running right up against the midnight that presages Friday.<\/p>\n

The dreamlike obsessing is mostly made of a question I’m asking myself about myself–whether deep down I’m the badass peace militant I’d like to believe me to be–or whether the real Alex always hedged his bets because he’s a canny bet-hedger in his soul.<\/p>\n

During the pilgrimage I started to joke a lot, about what would be the smart thing. The savvy way to proceed. This path here, for example, would be the smart thing, I smirked. The punchline was always the same. “Why start now?”<\/p>\n

Because I’ve always been brilliant, but I’ve never done the truly smart thing, according to the rules of ruthlessly canny intellect as defined by my culture. <\/p>\n

I’ve no-shit broken the noses of people who were physically threatening me or someone I was sworn to protect. Even more often, it didn’t have to go that far, because my roar and my rush are weapons that seem to terrify average mortal punks.<\/p>\n

But when it came to the real enemy, Systemic Authorities in various guises, I always walked a fine line between rebel posing and model worker, movie outlaw and good boy. <\/p>\n

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Three of them in a row running right up against the midnight that presages Friday. The dreamlike obsessing is mostly made of a question I’m asking myself about myself–whether deep down I’m the badass peace militant I’d like to believe me to be–or whether the real Alex always hedged his bets because he’s a canny […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_hide_featured_image":false,"_jetpack_featured_image_duplicate_dismissed":0,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2416","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2416","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2416"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2416\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2423,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2416\/revisions\/2423"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2416"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2416"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2416"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}