This morning I did a little math and realized that with overload, I’m making the most I ever have. It was shocking, because I’ve felt so broke for so many months in a row, due to fallout from the professional explosion, still having a mortgage on an empty house there that won’t sell and all. <\/p>\n
It was also weirdly empowering. I felt a surge of worth. Which at the end of the day feels shallow and dumb, but I felt it anyway and I’ll take it gladly, depth or no. <\/p>\n
I consider too that I’m making what I make in nine months of the year. <\/p>\n
And also that the classes are pretty much written now, which means less weekly stress in future terms. <\/p>\n
And also that the fucking pension continues to build. <\/p>\n
So I think alright. Maybe it makes no sense to jump ship, even for six figures, given that I could theoretically monetize those summers somehow, even given the anxieties of being onstage ten hours a week. I could handle that better, couldn’t I?<\/p>\n
Maybe. <\/p>\n
I feel like the certs are a good idea either way. For testing the waters I would land in if I did jump. For making a credible case for myself as ‘a consultant’ of some nebulous kind, trying out ways to make the world a better place in the summertimes first. <\/p>\n
I’m calmer for certain, though I still ache for finals to be done with and for the world to re-open up. <\/p>\n
I’m beginning to remember how to listen to myself just in time. <\/p>\n
There won’t be any need for the dormant downtime of a late may hibernation this year. I’m going to face the world and its unknowns instead of running from it. <\/p>\n
Documentation to follow. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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