{"id":1274,"date":"2020-05-19T22:46:30","date_gmt":"2020-05-20T05:46:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/?p=1274"},"modified":"2020-05-19T22:46:30","modified_gmt":"2020-05-20T05:46:30","slug":"down-for-me-for-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/2020\/05\/19\/down-for-me-for-now\/","title":{"rendered":"Down For Me For Now"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>In the first true pine-covered night I sleep for twelve hours in one stretch and I wake alone, except for one particular feline friend. <\/p>\n<p>Was it exhaustion? Elevation? Elation? All three and more. <\/p>\n<p>A few steps beneath the pines is a nice old state route road. <\/p>\n<p>A few more steps along it, there is another fine coffee shop, and this one serves really great food too. <\/p>\n<p>We feast on breakfast burritos, on the sandwich of egg and bagel, and drink deep of the brew. <\/p>\n<p>We spend a long moment in the lot and in love. <\/p>\n<p>I have to take the rental back down now, for now. But in the moment all is well. <\/p>\n<p>By the time I make it back to the part that isn&#8217;t quite yet amazingly pretty, I stop, and here in nowhere there is cold Pellegino in glass bottles. <\/p>\n<p>It is most assuredly a sign. <\/p>\n<p>The second stop is south of the populated hell. It&#8217;s for smoke. I&#8217;m still fighting it. Eventually I&#8217;ll win, but not today. <\/p>\n<p>The third stop is in population too, and it&#8217;s brutally depressing on one level. There are a dozen motorcycle cops goofing around in the lot on some kind of mass break. None of them have masks. Neither do the dozens of customers. Neither do the cashiers. I&#8217;m the only one. I do my business and go. <\/p>\n<p>I pack the bags into my own car and dump the rental at the utterly abandoned airport. <\/p>\n<p>In spite of being the only visible customer, I end up having to walk back to the long-term parking. The clerk is apologetic in an offhand and pretty surly way. Fuck him. I&#8217;m done. It&#8217;s time to go &quot;home&quot; and to repack. <\/p>\n<p>In the smaller town I stop for the fifth and final time, to stock a few things for the fridge that&#8217;s been abandoned these few days. Mainly it&#8217;s coffee milk I&#8217;m after. Almost no one here is masked either. Unprotected children give me long stares, sometimes from closer than six feet. Good luck, kid, Jesus.  With a mother like that you&#8217;ll need it. <\/p>\n<p>I snake my habitual back road where the myth of this being the place of the javelina was born, and yet I see no pigs, of any kind. <\/p>\n<p>And then I am back. There has been no fire, and the cat lives yet. She may be glad to see me but it&#8217;s hard to tell. Certainly she is glad to have her almost empty water dish refreshed. <\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile. There is a place. Eighty miles out the other way from the pines and the breakfast burritos. It&#8217;s functional and ugly and the trees are just cottonwoods and a couple of mesquite. There&#8217;s too much concrete and not enough weeds. The water is currently broken. <\/p>\n<p>But for better or worse it&#8217;s my place, in a way this one will never be. <\/p>\n<p>There are a number of jobs to take care of quite soon. <\/p>\n<p>Getting back to the pineless nowhere place is the main one. <\/p>\n<p>Getting back to caught up feels good. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In the first true pine-covered night I sleep for twelve hours in one stretch and I wake alone, except for one particular feline friend. Was it exhaustion? Elevation? Elation? All three and more. A few steps beneath the pines is a nice old state route road. 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