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<\/p>\nYesterday, with the RME freshly landed, the real rains came back, and I slept too much in the half-lighted fog of afternoon. Then I had a real nice visit and made tacos for the Visitor.<\/p>\n
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Thus, today I slept only a little in the wee hours, got up at the ideal time, around four, and wrote a long post, but it wasn’t the kind for publication. This one will have to be instead. <\/p>\n
There are three weeks before I get seriously paid again, yet the system requirements for August are already met. <\/p>\n
There are almost two weeks before the next trip, and it’s a big fat doozy, but necessary in some way that is also a meeting of system requirements. Just like renewing my car tags. Just like applying for Medicare in the anointed window, or else; the endless soft parades of distraction. <\/p>\n
In weeks after, people will want to be celebrating my alleged birth, but not wanting to be around each other while they do, which is always complicated. I have fantasies about escaping it down in those freshly undrowned and walkable Glen Canyons, without telling anyone where I’m going. <\/p>\n
But they’re only fantasies, burning like cigarettes down into ash in the tray. <\/p>\n
I’ll be a good boy, instead of putting Alex first, and juggle the radioactive fallout like a real pro. <\/p>\n
‘Just watch me’. <\/p>\n
At Halloween I will attend no drag shows, because in a town this small, there just aren’t any. Only ro-de-ooos. <\/p>\n
There will doubtless be expectations and obligations at Thanksgiving time, but they won’t be too onerous, because I will refuse to let them be, Rawr.<\/p>\n
Then shall come the quiet of solstice. <\/p>\n
It will not be frozen.<\/p>\n
I shall not be frozen.<\/p>\n
Some people try to pick up girls and get called an asshole. <\/p>\n
This never happened to … Pablo Picasso. <\/p>\n
He was only five foot three but girls could not resist his stare.<\/p>\n
Subsequently, Pablo Picasso was never called an asshole<\/a>. <\/p>\n Not like you. <\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/07\/ellay.png\")
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