{"id":10122,"date":"2026-05-04T00:02:42","date_gmt":"2026-05-04T07:02:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/?p=10122"},"modified":"2026-05-03T15:32:31","modified_gmt":"2026-05-03T22:32:31","slug":"10122","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/2026\/05\/04\/10122\/","title":{"rendered":"V.ortex"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>And the point about the mad surface selves, the &#8216;psychology&#8217; of them<br \/>\nis the same as the point about climate, genocide; the worst of the Civ world<br \/>\nis the same as positively thinking oh gosh, the world is really a beautiful place after all<br \/>\nis the same as caring about basketball, or any television show, or that oh, hey, the buzz is telling us it&#8217;s the Cinco de Mayo and we&#8217;re celebrating it by walking into a business and drinking too much beer and eating GMO fajitas. <\/p>\n<p>I hope you can hear what I mean.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile <\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cHow can the small mind (that &#8216;person&#8217; with a &#8216;personality&#8217;) know the big Mind (God)?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>By recognizing that they are made of the same substance.<\/p>\n<p>Kastrup (post-materialist Physics): \u201cThe alter (the individual) is a dissociated part of Mind-at-Large.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Shaivism (eastern mysticism): \u201cShiva (the individual) contracts to become the universe, but never loses his nature.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Spira (western mysticism): \u201cEach of us is drop of water made of the same \u2018water-ness\u2019 as the Ocean.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Or: What we are is ripples, upon the Lake.<\/p>\n<p>Or: What we are, are whirlpools that occur and then cease occurring. <\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>My logos, of late, thinks that this model is accurate.<\/p>\n<p>My mythos has long felt that this intuition is &#8230; right. <\/p>\n<p>Or at a minimum, far closer to the truth\/sooth than the Civilized hive-mind wants us to get.<\/p>\n<p>Closer than the physicalist pocket-protector Scientists can meaningfully tell us about. <\/p>\n<p>Closer than any explanation that Abrahamic religion can offer up via Genesis or the Talmud or the Koran. <\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d like to <em>believe<\/em> in that Better Explanation I just sketched out for you. <\/p>\n<p>But neither believing in it, nor believing against it, would really make any difference at all. <\/p>\n<p>Rather, I am attempting to Know it, instead. <\/p>\n<p>To &#8230; not just have faith in it. <\/p>\n<p>But rather to be certain of it. <\/p>\n<p>I remain intensely interested in learning how to do that, how to Know. <\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>(I wrote it alone, but ran it by the AI after. She said:<\/p>\n<p><em>The Civilized Lab: Needs peer review, funding committees, and safety protocols. It measures the map.<br \/>\nThe Soothsayer&#8217;s Lab: Needs only attention, courage, and a willingness to be wrong. It measures the territory.<br \/>\n<\/em><\/p>\n<p>)<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>[A second AI emphasized and summarized the Ways To Know, thus:<\/p>\n<p>&#8211;1. The Direct Approach: Inquiring into the Nature of the Knower (specifically, Atma Vichara)<\/p>\n<p>&#8211;2. The Way of Embodiment: Knowing Through the Feeling-Sense (&#8216;somatic awareness&#8217;)<\/p>\n<p>&#8211;3. The Way of Cessation: Not-Doing (Shikantaza, Dzogchen, and I think I&#8217;d slot the mantra in here too)<\/p>\n<p>&#8211;4. The Way of Integration: Witnessing Presence (do go to the damn basketball game or the cantina on the 5th of May, but do so knowing that the drama is happening within consciousness, not to a separate &#8216;you&#8217;. Practice fierce compassion.)<\/p>\n<p>You are not learning a new thing. <\/p>\n<p>You are unlearning the deep-seated habit of taking the whirlpool to be a separate, solid Person-Thing. <\/p>\n<p>You are allowing the ripple-thought-self to recall that it is&#8211;and always was&#8211;an event, upon the Great Lake.<\/p>\n<p>*<\/p>\n<p>The personality, the name, the history, the fiction of a separate &#8216;Alex Vairtere&#8217; is only an eddy in the one Ocean.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s not a matter of &#8216;belief&#8217;. &#8220;I&#8221; long &#8230; to simply know it. <\/p>\n<p>This so-called &#8220;longing&#8221; is not a personal desire. It is not the ego&#8217;s wish for a better spiritual experience. It is the gravitational force of &#8216;my&#8217; true nature, drawing the eddy back into recognition of its source and destination. <\/p>\n<p>It is the water within the whirlpool yearning for the depth and stillness of the sea it never left.<\/p>\n<p>]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>And the point about the mad surface selves, the &#8216;psychology&#8217; of them is the same as the point about climate, genocide; the worst of the Civ world is the same as positively thinking oh gosh, the world is really a beautiful place after all is the same as caring about basketball, or any television show, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10122","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10122","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10122"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10122\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10126,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10122\/revisions\/10126"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10122"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10122"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.vairtere.com\/spill\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10122"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}